You guys probably know that I tend to “wear my heart on my sleeve.” I’m willing to share my thoughts and feelings with prettymuch anyone. About the only time I hold something back is when I think it might hurt someone.

Well, I’ve had this thought in my head for some time that I needed to break up with Nikki. She’s a sweet girl, I really like her. But I don’t want to marry her. We don’t have quite the same goals in life.

I was mostly worried that it’d be rough on her. I couldn’t see any gentle way to do it. But I didn’t talk to anyone else, because I wanted Nikki to be the first to know. I only talked to God. I asked him to help me out, and to take care of her. I was really dreading it. But I was hiding my feelings.

I am a little bit sorry about telling a number of you that we were doing alright when that wasn’t my true opinion, but I think you can understand. I might do it different in the future, but I decided that this was how I wanted to handle it this time. And maybe, just maybe, I won’t be in this situation again.

It was a bit amusing how the breakup happened. Earlier this week I made up my mind that I needed to do it. But I wanted to do it in person. She has been busy all week and I’m going to be out of town all weekend. So I wasn’t really sure when I’d get to see her next.

Then yesterday I got a text message that she wanted to break up with me. She thought I was going to hate her. My first thought:

That was easy.

I called her up and we talked a little bit and I’ve still got a great friend.

I’m pretty sure that this was the first time I’ve ever gotten dumped as an answer to prayer.. Hopefully it won’t happen again.